I'm still in "coast" mode--maybe because things (deadlines, commitments, and fun stuff) are really going to accelerate soon and I'm in denial.
Tomorrow we shall paint the Easter eggs we cooked today-- it's a family ritual that doesn't seem to ever get old. I have fun with it.
I do up Easter baskets as well--I guess until someone tells me to stop I'll keep at it.
Okay, what's really on my mind is selfish stuff. We have to go to my husband's family's home for Easter (my parents live in Maryland--so we don't see them much) and I have a really rough time at big gatherings like that.
I have one sib--my bro--so I grew up in a home with four people total--and we moved here to the States and left all my Canadian family behind--so we were pretty much on our own. Add to that--my primary family, including me, is socially maladjusted. I'm really grateful that both my boys seem outgoing. I'm a frelling hermit crab--just want to crawl into my shell.
Okay, something positive. I need Easter shoes and am going to have my youngest son accompany me to mall tomorrow--didn't get it done the other day. I've had a huge struggle with anxiety all my life and going to a big, crowded place like that makes me feel all squirrelly inside. It's always better with someone along, and my son really digs the mall experience. Maybe we'll stop at one of those decadent, overpriced little Cinnabon-Mrs. Field's type places after we complete our mission.
Hmm. That wasn't so positive.
I'll try again tomorrow.
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