Always, Always, Always, trust your gut.
It's the forum issue again.
I had a feeling it might be a rough fit and I'll be darned if it's not coming true. (Not the forum itself but the surrounding interpersonal issues).
I blame my mother. She taught me to be extremely independent. I take directives (but not directions) poorly. I was raised to be in charge of my life. And I'm not a game player, though I can do quite well as a team player.
My big ol' flaws have come to the surface.
Perhaps I should withdraw some from a situation that is bringing out the worst in me. Reassess and reconsider what path I should be on.
Yup.
I need to listen to my conscience, let petty things go, and try to be the best me I can be.
People can take or leave it(me).
Posted by: Cyn | February 23, 2004 at 05:14 PM
shouldn't you just be?
Posted by: lakkris | February 23, 2004 at 04:54 PM
Yeah. "it" = the forum.
:sigh:
I can't even say what I want to say because this blog is read by some forum members. Most are good people but one--unfortunately--is in a position of power--and is a huge manipulator.
It's just all so soap opera-ish. This isn't a battle I'm going to engage in.
It took too much emotional energy last time.
Posted by: Cyn | February 21, 2004 at 05:28 PM
Perhaps you should, if it's already bringing out the worst in you...
Posted by: Rose | February 21, 2004 at 07:03 AM
You and "it"?
Posted by: Rose | February 21, 2004 at 06:56 AM